from The Reiki Magazine International
January, 2003

“I noticed as I treated myself and others that my mind became a flow; filling and emptying.  Eventually, I began to see that I had used my mind to build defenses for self-preservation and to retain vast amounts of information.  I thought that this was the function of my mind, and I was satisfied with my ability to exercise my mind.  We were friends.  Then something began to happen.  I began to sense that there was another quality of experience I could have with my mind.  I came to believe that my mind's true function is to allow me the experience of creation.  I see this experience of creation as the process of compiling conscious and unconscious elements, then leaping the mysterious gap into a unique experience.  This unique experience is a moment of creation.  This moment changes the quality of my life forever.  The more moments I have of this nature, the more I feel the vast possibilities of my life as a human being."

Practice and Creativity

Because I wanted another answer, I began to pay more attention to the process.  I began to relate more to the word “practice” than “technique” to describe what I called Reiki.  The more I practiced, the more I understood the benefits of a practice.  The effects were cumulative.  One insight and then another would occur.  These insights were related and often resulted in major shifts in my thinking, in the way I understood my universe.  I also learned that the practice was not to achieve a goal but to grow in my awareness and vision of myself as a human being.  As my awareness grew, many questions emerged.  "Who am I?  What are my boundaries?  What is the true interaction between my physical body and the other facets of being that I can experience, especially through this connection with the energy of Reiki?  What is creativity?  Where does it come from, and where is it hidden in me?"

Eventually, I came to see that when I had these moments of creation, passion also was present.  I needed, then, to learn what to do with the results of these creative moments.  Which ideas nurtured me and which ones led me away from myself?  

I grew less suspicious of my creative passion the more I was able to express it freely and was able to see what happened as a result of my expression.  Not everything was nurturing.  Timing became an obvious issue.  When is the timing right for expression?  Many times the expression filled me down to the "bottom of my soul."  I continued practicing Reiki and paying attention.